✖ Gloomy ✖

What can you perceive upon this picture?
motor, dog and the child solely.

Just now I received a phone call from someone. He asked me where am I now and I answered him I am home yet you guys guess what did he speak to me? "Why you never strolling in town today?So "guai" back home so early?" All right!! I do know I have no good impression to outsiders. I have neither pretty face, sweet voice, warm smile nor slim body. I always think I am live for myself but not survive to others so I must be a optimistic person. It's irony that I made up my mind that a genuine smile or a loyal heart from me ain't enough at all. Frankly, I do bearing someone's grudge because of his irresponsible action. Unfortunately, I hate that someone who did something wrongly and just let it be without any effort to recuperate on what he had done. Then now, he still treating like nothing happened and I have no idea on what I should do. (I can still talk to him as usual but the way he is teasing me in every our conversation do hurt me badly and I won't forget the lesson you gave me that night.If you think this is your triumph then I will surrender.) Well~Perhaps I am the one who create the problems due to my narrow-minded, tolerance is always been in my heart but I hide it deeply inside carefully and never let it sneaking out from my mouth.Are you never the same or I am the one who changed a lot? I am depressed because reality weaken our relationships yet others may have the victory for their straightforward. Words are swords. If you want to comment or slander someone please beware and make sure the victim never be exposed. May be you are not doing this purposely but that person may be hurted by you indirectly. So, look around, think critically and speak smart.

In the end, Bybae K.O.

To one of my best friend:
I know you would never read my blog.Can you remember everytime you were
crying sadly in front of me and I am always the one who comforted you.
Now, I can feel the same as you.I can say that I am different from them.
Let's us get along together and bury the roguery underneath.

I cannot say my intuition is precies.
I dare to say that sometimes
I can read someone's mind
yet not everyone's
but is the one
who is devil for me.

✖ ReNeGe ✖

TRUSTWORTHY

BETRAYAL

Which will you choose??
I chose the former yet the latter picked me.
Hence, I met with adversity.

Thank you my friend as I learned how to FORGIVE.

I finally chucked myself out to be alone.

BEING MATURE

✖ Oh My Gosh ✖

God is a girl

I am a girl

but

I
am
not
the
God !!!

What actually do you understand about myself?

Do you ever realize that I need to study and cover so many syllabus for my STPM?

Do you think I only think of enjoyment in every cell of my body?

I need to teach my brother as he also sitting for his SPM this year.
Do you think i have extra time to idle out?

Am I so mature as what you guys thought that I ought to be a S.U.P.E.R.G.I.R.L solving everything in hand?

S.T.O.P !!!
pressuring on me!

If you think you are guilty then say sorry to me.

I am not offended and I am not going to mad at you.

i wish you can think for me and treat me like a normal girl.

I appreciated what we shared yet
I need to rest because I am tension.

Thank you for your understanding.

I hate to be monitored,
I can't express myself as well,
this is how my pressure came.

You know I am talking about you.
Very sorry that I need to speak it out.
I am tricky since I used you as my bait
to allude others and I don't prefer
to vent at any of you in this way.

S.O.R.R.Y
because
I am not the god but the jerk

♥ Cherish ♥

Thank you to whom really concern me with their faithful heart.

YES !!!

Bybae is still alive here~

I'm okay so don't need to worry about me.

I am always ME ,
the one who can handle things perfectly.

My tears is unable to
wash away the hardships.
So I would not sob secretly alone
since I believe that my smile will
bring me another rainbow
right in front of my sight.

Future is there.
Either bright or dark.
I am trying harder to get there
no matter I will succeed or failure.
This is what I should do on my decision.

✖Unpredictable ✖

Now already over 12am so it can consider as another new day which means the days toward my STPM is getting shorter. Yesterday, Saturday evening, there was an unexpected case in my village. In fact, I wanted to go for a walk at my village's Lover Bridge to relieve my stress. Due to my superstitious belief, in the July of mandarin's calender is also known as "supernatural month", I decided not going to the bridge. I was shocked as my dad told me that was a boy almost my age drowned in the sea in the evening. That was a bad news and caused a sensation in my village. Let's stop talking this topic in such a raining midnight.

I am planning to stop all my entertainment,
starting from the 1st day of Trial STPM
until the last day of my STPM 2009.

Although I can't ensure that
during this tough period
there will be
NO cellphone,
NO computer,
NO cinema ,
NO yam cha ,
NO piano ,
I will try to adapt myself
diminishing them.

Will you guys support me?

Dear BYBAE :
I LOVE YOU
Just do it ! I trust you !
Gambateh~
Wish you all the best~

Going to bed~
Quite scary since I am alone~

✖ Omen?? ✖

There was many moths in my home since last week. Generally, elderly with Chinese's custom will says that moths represent our ancestors' souls. My mum is pious to her religious yet has a tendency towards superstition. That is why she prohibited us to kill moths or disturb them.

That night I found out that moths appeared about 20++ at once and I was walking in and out of my house yet busy escaping them in my house since I can't touch them or hurt them. The next day, I was chatting at 6A8 as usual suddenly our topic turned into moths in our village. After comparing with them, I realized Tanjong Sepat was already surrounded by moths last night. My friend's house even had about 30++ moths that night and he was enjoying kill the moths with his weapon - badminton racket.

This was the nearest distance I had been with a moth before.


That night I was busy capturing their pictures too.
haha...What the hell I always doing such stupid thing instead of study...sigh..

I heard some rumors about moths in the legend of my village. It was long time ago, that time also had the same situation similar to the circumstance now. Someone told me that the WORLD WAR 2 happened right after the appearance of moths in great quantities in our village. Thus, there are many predictions saying that 22/07/2009 which is tomorrow will be the end of the world. swt~ What I get from the news is tomorrow will have solar eclipse.

I would like to make a wish here. I wish tomorrow will not be the end of the world because I still have a lots of things waiting for me to complete them. I not yet celebrating my coming birthday with my lovely friends and I feel happy to know F5 students in my school. Although I am the oldest among them, we can still stick together with lots of jokes and laughter.

p/s: I am super duper regret that I can't manage to buy a piece of cake in Secret Recipe for myself this evening.

I do appreciate my life.
I not yet make my life
more colorful~
more joyfulness~
more happiness~
more sweetness~
I not yet find my true love,
the only one in my life~

✖ Anonymous ✖

He gave me RM150 this afternoon.

I returned the money to him.

She cut the master card into pieces.

He took out a letter.

NO quarrel

NO war

Calm and Peaceful...

Make no senses on what I am talking about?

Then just forget about it~

What was going on?
What the hell I am roaming for??
Toddle like a young child~

Money can buy everything
but not faithful love
as what he did~
I do love you ~
I am proud of you~

✖ Perturbation ✖

I feel so uneasy right now.

One and a half hour later then I can get my MUET result either through sms or internet.

What am I hestitating here?

"Bybae, just pick up your cellphone and key in you IC number then send it to get the result!"

This is what my brain asking me to do so but my heart is too scared to face the reality =.='

I am pondering that should I sms to get my result tonight or wait the letter tomorrow or few days later?

(I think I want to try the feeling of the moment I hold the letter on my hands and the second I look into my result. It will be very nervous+challenging yet I wish I would not faint or unconscious after I look at my result.)

p/s: I know it's too late if I wish right now but I sincerely wish that god will bless me~
p/s 2 : I can feel that I did badly in my MUET paper and I feel embarrassing to get my result.

Bybae always used to be
in the eleven hour ,
she will just worrying
whenever the matter is
getting nearer to her....

Take a deep breath
Smile ^^
Everything will be okay~

✖ E-X-A-M ✖

A single word to describe my circumstance now
that is
suffocate

I did study in this PPT exam yet
I can't answer my exam papers as well...
*sigh* (one more torturing week to go~)

I am worrying I am the only one who
can't manage to study all the chapters of each subject.
Once I looked into the questions , they drove me crazy.
I admit that I am not as hardworking as others so
I was unspoken with my achievement.

Thanks god to give me this chance to choose Form 6.
This is the ever tough adventure i never experienced before.
I was taught to learn how to make decision,
getting away from my laziness, and I realize the
reality of life is...

Anyway~ This is my fate~
So , I decided to get that piano...
(refer to last article : my promise with my lovely mum)
I still have many plans need to go through in my life,
I wish I can have a list of them soon.

Failure is not forever,
Succeed also not perpetuation.
Now you are on top of the peak,
the next moment you may be upside down.

Don't scare the mistakes you did,
the worse is you never realize it
and never try to learn from mistakes,
so I will keep this exam as my lesson.
This is because Bybae knows
the progression is everlasting.

♥ M-I-S-S ♥

I Miss Bybae
I Miss Sin Yee
I Miss You

I'm getting to loss myself...
Since when i became so terrible??
Is that you, Bybae??

p/s : That is somethings i don't hope to share it here because i will just let my friends and someone who really concern about me to gain the joyfulness from me. That's why my blog's name is "Peals of Merry Laughter" where only happy moments will be noted in here.

I can't control
the whole situation
from getting worse,
what i can do is just to
do what i should do,
one day you might know.
Bybae is always here for you.